Thursday, September 20, 2012

doubt.

Doubt. It may the most pervasive of emotions.

It can stop me dead in my tracks when it comes to every decision I make. Whether it's taking a leap of faith with my art career or cutting my hair short.

I'm  getting tired of letting it run my life.

I've told myself a thousand times that what I do isn't "good enough", or that it's "not really art". And even once I've sucked it up and gained the confidence to stop thinking that way, the doubt comes to me like this: what makes me think I deserve to make a living doing what I want?

There's a weird kind of audacity to making art your full-time job. It seems to say to the word: "Yeah, that's right. I think I'm better than the rest of you. I don't need this 9-5 bullshit, I'm gonna make ART."

So I worry. That by doing what I love, what I'm compelled to do even if I'm not getting paid, is somehow going to seem arrogant and possibly offensive to people in my life. But I know that I will worry and stress that I'm not being true to myself if I don't do it.

And I'd be right about that. I wouldn't be true to myself if I don't take this chance. So I'm taking it. And I'm not going to feel guilty about it. And I'm going to relish that uncertainty and that fear. I'm gonna own it.

A line from my favorite song at the moment, "Clone" by Metric:

"nothing I've ever done right happened on the safe side".

Pretty much sums it up.
Oh yeah, and I'll be cutting my hair short, too.

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

smitten.


Meet the Whitney Clutch from EvenOdd Creative. I've been a wee bit obsessed with it as of late.

Daydreaming about it. Wanting it.

Made from repurposed bike innertubes, it is just so different than anything else out there. A little darker. A little weirder. A little rebellious on the outside, but oh-so-proper and tailored on the inside.

Finally this past weekend, at the Greentopia Festival, I bought one. A bit of a splurge for me, as I usually don't treat myself to things simply because I want them. I just love what they do, what they stand for, and this little beauty is just so well constructed.

Rock on.

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

space.


my space, that I share with Jen


paintings on Jim's wall


Pistachio Press

studio cat!


tiny banner on my wall


Thank you all for following me to this new space. A space a just for Vintage Refashioned. I plan to post more often about upcoming work, the process of creating it, and studio life in general.

On the subject of space, I've just recently moved in to an actual studio space. I'm splitting a small area within a larger shared space. My studio mates are Rachael & Jake of Pistachio Press Jim DeLucia, and Jen of Beeswax and Horsehair. I couldn't ask for better folks to share a space with. Each and every one of them is incredibly talented, supportive, and encouraging.

I'm looking forward to spending as much time as I can here, working toward making a serious business out of my crafts, and having a shit ton of fun. 

It all feels pretty legit.